hey y’all. it’s been a while since i’ve wrote and i’ve always been completely transparent w u all and have let u in on my life, so why stop now?
life has been extremely hard lately. my mind has felt like it’s been on the frontline of a battlefield w no where to escape to. my family has been going through a lot. i have been. and i’m sure someone out there has been to.
i have felt extremely lonely and lost. and those are two emotions that can weigh an individual down tremendously. i feel as if there has been SO much change in my life happen SO fast, that there is no possible way to keep up.
anyone who knows me, knows i do not hide my emotions, especially when i feel they can help someone who is struggling also.
sin is inevitable. death is inevitable. yet regardless, those are two very hard topics to deal with. sin poisons are brains into thinking we are nothing that God says we are. death may just so happen take away the ones you love most, causing you to feel pain that you never wished or deserved.
lately, i feel as if i have twisted what God says about me into labels of what i do wrong. this feeling has caused me to view everything i do wrong and it’s caused me to turn away from everything i love most, including God. i’ve formed conclusions and overthought way too much these past few days. i’ve thought that i’m not good enough. and i’ve honestly been angry at the world, considering i’m losing someone very close to me. but when an individual struggles, it’s scientifically proven that the individual will struggle more through stress and anxiety. i’m THAT individual. the one who makes it even worse on their self with no way to prevent it. it’s okay to stress. it’s okay. but don’t let that be all you think about. don’t confuse what God says about you with what the world says about you.
i have put my life in boxes for as long as i can remember. my mind has always contained a million boxes of what i must check off to be enough. to maintain the perfect image. and it is absolutely exhausting and not worth it one bit. but it’s the way my mind is. God says i am enough without the labels. that the only label i have is “His Child.” he gets it. but sometimes, when you put yourself in a box to do better and not mess up, it’s hard to change your thought process.
one thing i’ve learned lately, is the world does not stop. you are having a hard day. you are losing a loved one. you are struggling mentally. and? no matter what day you are having, the world does not care. the hours still go by. the assignments are still do. and life keeps going on. but it’s learning to grow in those moments. it’s what makes us strong.
life has been hitting hard. the voices have been a lot lately. the pain has been overbearing lately. and honestly, i haven’t quite known how to deal with it all. but i know God is giving me these hardships to make me stronger. and he’s the doing the same for you.
maybe, if you are like me, you should start looking outside the boxes. look around. see how much you are wanted and needed to make a difference. God does not see you like you see yourself. he doesn’t see you as a mistake. he sees you as HIS.
so forget the labels, the boxes, your mistakes, the sin, the world. quit focusing on what you aren’t and start focusing on what you are. you may just realize how much you are loved and how strong you actually are. stop focusing on proving to the world what you are and start realizing yourself who you actually are and the good you actually do.
keep ur head up. turn to God. everyone is struggling to some degree. everyone’s battles are different and valued. life is tough but so are you🤍 keep pushing forward.
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