so haven’t wrote a lot about my personal life here lately, so I’ll spill the beans for y’all…
I’ve been doing pretty good since I came back from mfuge. I have noticed I’ve gotten back into a routine(which is nice for me) and I’ve noticed control hasn’t taken over that much. i feel as if I’m allowing myself to eat more than my old mentality would say is too much and I’m not regretting it so much. If ya don’t struggle with an eating disorder or have struggled with one then it can be complicated to understand… there is a voice in your head that makes you think less of your self and it wants to control every aspect of your life. it’s a hard battle to overcome but wow oh wow how amazing recovery feels.
I feel as if God puts these battles in our lives to help others who struggle with them and to make us also want to lean on him. I mean, he is the one who made us… so we all feel a little less crazy when we aren’t judged for the way we are… am I right?
Well that voice “control” doesn’t stop. And I feel sometimes that is what keeps me from keeping my eyes on the Lord.
Us human beings are so selfish with our time. We act as if we have time to do the things we want, yet we are too busy to give our time up and help someone who needs it. We never ever even consider reading a bible verse because “it will take too much of our tv time away”. And instead we devote our lives to worldly, unsatisfying things,
My biggest problem with devoting my time is when i am stressed, I don’t sit and eat tons of ice cream and watch tv, I do something. I either start cleaning, working out, cooking, something besides doing nothing. All of these things I listed are hobbies, I enjoy them, yet sometimes I’m not willing to give up my hobbies and spend time with God. I’m not willing to sit down and just pray and talk with God. I instead say “oh I’ll read the Bible tonight”, and I never do.
That’s what is wrong with our society. We are taught to be selfish with our time, instead of giving it up for the greater good.
So I challenge you all, let’s all grow closer to friends and family and to our one true savior… by devoting our time.
What if we all pitched in a little commitment to make this world not so bad? YOU are the only one who can change it. Don’t be selfish. Be the helpful, kind souls that this world needs to become a better place.
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