so y’all… i was writing in my journal(yes i keep a journal)… and i wanted to share this with you all.
i have been very happy lately. idk why, but I have been. i still am the on the go constantly, have controlled thoughts, and I still struggle with self love… but lately it’s like that voice in my head has taken a back seat.
There are a lot of ways to describe my mind. different, stressful, and confusing are just a few of them… but i like to describe it as one thing. A lottery ticket.
Yes I said a lottery ticket. I feel as if I never know if I’ll win- If today will be my lucky day, and I’ll find true happiness and be free of all the worry. Or if I will end up like 99.9% of the tickets and lose- and have the dreadful, miserable day.
God works in his mysterious ways. Yet we all try so hard to control our happiness. Your happiness will find you… if you let it. I pray that all of you give God the chance to work in your lives.
I have a challenge for you. buy the ticket. Choose to look on the brighter side and know that you are never alone in any of your struggles- mentally or physically.
God’s got your back and so do I!
and suddenly one day, without realizing it… you will be that winning ticket. and all your failures and rough times will be turned into success and happiness.
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